"All and all, it's just another brick in the wall..."
The concept album tells the story of Pink, a man who builds a metaphoric wall separating himself from society after experiences with an absent father, a overprotective and smothering mother, an emotionally abusive teacher, and later, a cheating wife. After a time, wall completed, Pink starts to see himself as a sort of dictator (the character is a rock star) rallying a mob (his audience.) More time passes, and Pink cannot take the self-imposed isolation anymore. He examines the events that had led him to this point, and realizes that society wasn't being mean to him; it was the opposite: he thinks that it was his fault. The wall crumbles, and the most common interpretation is that Pink, unable to cope with these new revelations, shoots himself in the head.
It was not the suicide that got me thinking last night, but rather the idea of the all-important Wall.
Does everybody have a Wall? For introverted people, maybe the Wall is chest-high, while for the most extroverted it only brushes the ankles. Maybe some, like Pink's, are heavy stone and brick, and others are made of wood or Styrofoam. After all, no one is completely public; there are a few, at the least, thoughts or secrets that are kept hidden away.
Do we subconsciously build our Walls as a natural defense, to keep ourselves from being hurt again? Is that why those who have felt that they've been abandoned have difficulty forging new relationships?
I do not like answering many personal questions. I have been called a very private person; I've been told I've become more so over the past twenty months. Am I slowly building my Wall higher?
I remember a time, probably about October 2006, when I couldn't see over the Wall. I didn't speak unless absolutely necessary, and withdrew from nearly all human contact. I was trapped in my own hard little cyst- or should I say Wall?
So I guess it's possible to tear down the Walls; the internal construction crew is always hard at work. I think everyone needs a Wall for protection, but how long could one really go when it gets too tall?