June 11, 2009

SI Stuff

Photo-journalism documenting self-injury in Japan (TIME)

In case you hadn't gathered it already from here, I've started SIing again. Regularly too, close to every day.

I'm refraining from posting too much about it, simply because no one really needs to know the specifics, just that I'm at it again. And I can't bear to even think about that trip to the emergency room right now- they didn't give me any painkiller whatsoever as they stitched me up. I know it's unlawful discrimination, but I was too drained in every way that night but to bite my tongue and cry.

I'll try to stop again, but I don't have the motivation right now. I need the cutting, and don't think I have the strength to give it up.

Please don't worry about me. Although I want to die, I'm not suicidal. I can't stress this enough.


  1. Your treatment at the hospital was inhumane.

    I don't know where you live, but by the sounds of it it's too small for you. I look forward to hearing from Mariah in NYC...

  2. I live in a middle-sized city in the American Midwest that supposedly is considered to be on the liberal side.

    In between the hospital and the depression/school incident, I'm starting to feel like the "progressive" mindset is a misdiagnosis...