So much has happened since my last real post. Just a quick one right now- I'll try to put more up over the weekend, but don't count on it.
Actually, I wouldn't be counting on a whole lot because I'm just a few hairbreadths away from total collapse.
I WANT TO DIE. I'd hoped I'd never return to this place, but it's true. I want to delete all the posts off this blog- all has been lost; I'm back at square one. The vaguely optimistic words I wrote no longer seem to hold any truth.
I cut myself and ended up in the emergency room.
I'm ready to just give up on everything.
There's still enough of the conscious me here to know I'm completely fucked, but she's struggling to hold on.