June 29, 2008

The Other Mariah


I have two faces:

One looking forward;

One looking back;

Neither present now


People, places, friends

Yet to be seen

The other Mariah

Holds me back

A lead weight

Still lingers

From anther time


'What are you afraid of?'

I ask the Other

She says that she

Is not afraid

But rather

That I should stay


'It's all your fault,'

She croons

Softly, seductively, convincingly

And I believe her

She's right, you know


I can only glimpse

A wide open collection

Prospects, ideas, dreams

Of who I could become

Before the other Mariah

Yanks the chain

Around my neck

Tighter into the past

I sink
(before anyone asks, that isn't me in the picture)

3 comments:

  1. It's hard to let go of the past, it clings to us as much as part of us clings to it. But there is no healing without moving forward.

    You have recognised that you are chained to your past, now you have to break those chains...

    ~Shiv

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  2. I'd realized that awhile ago.

    I don't know how to move forward.

    It's so hard.

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  3. Oh, you got me - I was just about to ask whether that was you in the picture...

    Suzy x

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